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终于要坦然地面对现实了，终于可以大方地向大众宣布了-我要转科系了。。
两年前傻傻地选择了牙科系，以为会比医科容易读。没想到真的是个错误，后悔的选择啊！一个月痛苦的迎新月，折磨精神的考试周，辗转难眠地等待成绩出炉，难熬的重考月，寂寞的重读年。。。天啊，为何别人可以顺利过关而我却必须承受如此的痛苦呢？
两年后的我终于鼓起勇气要为自己的未来开创另一条道路了。经济学，如此陌生，却又如此熟悉。希望不久后我可以正式被录取。但愿我这次的学习道路将会顺畅无阻，2012年8月我将要毕业为马大经济学学士学位。

好一段时间已经没再打开过这一页了，原以为这一页将永远被我遗忘掉的。但因为一位朋友的部落格而让我重新去寻回这被遗忘的一页。从前在这所写下的一切又像时光机似的倒流回来脑海里。曾经为了他所付出的感情并没有得到任何回报，现在已有她陪伴在他的身边了；而我却始终还是一个人。从期待爱情的来临，盼望爱情的来临，渴望爱情的来临，到现在无望爱情会来临了。我真的是这么不应该被爱？不需要被爱得女生吗？
这一年的日子过的怎样已经不重要了，期待不久的将来我可以摆脱这痛苦的环境，不需再戴上虚假的面具去迎合那班不想再有关系的一群了。重新的抉择希望会带来快乐的阳光。

dis blog is seem like an unknown blog..nobody view it n nobody post anything here..
i use dis blog 2 write down my love story with him de..
but since finish gacc 12, our relationship turn back to normal.. as normal as strangers..
have i put down my feeling to him? NO..
i not yet forget him. i still hope he can turn back n be with me..i miss the time we spent together.. i miss his caring n i miss him so much..
he will leave college next sem..i no longer can meet him once he stay outside..what should i do? who else can i rely on? who else can i miss?i still got heart to do gacc 13 without him ma?
why i have to experience these no beginning de relationship?is the second time le.....
where is my love???????????

such a month long din write anything at here ady..
nov is a bad month 4 me as i had my sem 1 final exam.. i noe i did very bad in dis exam n im ready 2 fail it.. dis was d 1st time 4 me 2 write nothong in d answer sheat.. realy die ady..
i gt 3 weks of holidays n nw i hv spent 2 weks for my chess glub activity..
although i hv short time 2 rest bt i enjoy my activity so much..
i wil become a liason tomolo n take care of a team members from far eastern university, philipinnes.. perhaps my partner n me can take a good care of them n hv an un4getable wek..
erm, hv u watched b4? do u think my face gt similiar wit d main character in it, alice? my senior here said im looked like alice??!izit? haha...

my 1st exam at um wil arrive soon.. next wek is my study wek n then i wil face d exam..
dunoe y i feel so stress dis time?? i haven felt dis b4.. mayb bcs of my cousemates.. all of them r so hardworking n so stress.. no1 r taking d exam easy bt al r becoming so terrible..
every1 seem like complete wit each others..
4 those who cant catch up d studies,they feel so stress n even ignore d hardworking coursemates.. its reali tension seeing dis ppl.. hw wil i survive 4 d next 5 yrs??
bt i am who i am..i won compare wit them n i jus folo my own steps..
i dun wan 2 b crazy bcs of d exam..

exam is coming 2 weeeks later. every1 is getting stress n stress. no more funny joking; no more chating; no more outing.. wat remain is d serious facial expression of each others..
4 wat all of them take it so serious??
some cant sleep at nite; some cant eat well; n some even cant 'do big business' well..
hw crazy r those ppl la..
study hard every day ady n still say cant finish al d study.. oh my god.. if u al cant finish, hw bout d ppl like me tat jus start study nw??
im realy sick of them..
mayb i wil go my grandma house during d study wek.. run away from dis ppl n release my tension here...

went out 2 red box at low yat plaza dis evening.. 12 of us had a great n happy time there..
v sang 4 several hours ther n had a buffer there.. all of us grabbed d oppourtunity 2 eat a lots.. sushi,salad, fried mee, fried rice, chicken,fish,prawn, ice cream, cake, desserts n so on.. all r so delicious n v ate non stop d whole nite.. it costed each person RM20 for 5 hours n a buffer.. quite ok la d price.. next time mayb when u free oso can ask me 2 karaoke o.. haha..
after k time v went 2 time square n wished 2 watch <> bt d tickets had sold out.. on d way 2 time square,i met chicken (jie yun) wit her bf there.. its so surprised n shocked when she saw me.. hihi..