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ermm,mayb u might gt confuess when u finish reading my last post..
actually i 4got 2 make a relation 4 my title n d article la..
y i named it as ??
when d guy dun hv accompany then he wil only think of u n find u chating,n he wont find u when he is busy or when he is wit his fren...hw wil u feel?
it seem like i treat myself as a consolation gift.. cant gt d 1st prize then jus accept d consolation gift 2 console myself..am i satisfy wit dis?
im nt sure...wat im sure is i wil immediately go out once receiving a call from him... no matter wat am i doing on tat time..
am i a stupid girl?

i reali cant control my heart n action .. a few days v din contact n im thinking 2 cut it off..
bt y jus a call 2 drink may hold bec d almost fly off de kite??
heart is reali an uncontrolled organ...
d most u wish 2 4get d person,d most ur heart wil think bout him..
y v must suffer dis then v can meet our mr,right?
4 wat u must influence me 2 folo u le?
4 wat d heart is stil thinking off u le?
4 wat am i waiting 4 le?

tat was a surprise n sadly day 4 me... reali unbelievable 4 me 2 believe such a kind-hearted ppl would leave us so early.. mayb d legend is rite.. d heaven need him d most n urgent so he had 2 leave us without any msg leaving.. perhaps u wil strong enough n can go through dis difficult period soon.. i noe its reali a hard time 4 u as i had gone through it b4 after my beloved grandma de leaving... jus b strong n find a listener whenever u r in down mood... v wil always b by ur side de.. k?
take a good rest n take care ya..

early morning went 2 puchong 4 marketing drive(refund) by a speedy bus..reali scaring n dangerous d journey..then v reached d destination n started our work wit a partner..
so lucky 2day as d 1st person tat i approached at a coffee shop,giv me rm30 ye..u noe hw excited i feel on tat time..
bt d best luck was nt around me d whole day..it was harder n harder 4 us 2 ask donation from public..some even stopped me when i jus introduced myself..haiz.. nw only i realized hw d ppl feel when they ask donation n had been rejected..
only with d spirit tat no give up n keep on asking, u wil only success..
sometime i may b down when i had been rejected 4 a few times..bt only looking other members oso din give up,then i gt d energy 2 stand up again n keep on asking..
after walking 4 d half day,all of us finished our energy n very tired..v even dun hv d mood 2 approach d ppl again..
however through d marketing drive,i learnt a lots.. its reali hard 2 earn money even RM5..
help d ppl who ask donation from u especially students as they go 2 approach u with highly hope de...

dunoe where had i gt dis determination n intrest 2 b an active member at hostel.
i had changed a lots n nw im so willing 2 make n talk wit new fren..in my opinion, i think tat uni life is d most important part of life.i wish 2 make full use of my uni life so tat i will hv a un4getable memory in future..try 2 imagine if u r a 'lubuk' (means a sleepy member who din take part in any activity at my hostel) during d whole uni life,wat type of memory wil u gain? jus reading ,studying, reading,studying... oh my,such a boring life!
take part in activity makes me learn a lots.. reali.. i gain my confident n communication skill.. i learnt hw 2 organize a gathering.. i gt chances 2 do some marketing tasks such as make call 2 companies 2 find sponsorship, go refund at crowded places.. studying marketing r my ambition b4 n nw i gt d opportunity..i reali enjoy it so much..
beside tat,i made a lot of new fren here.all of them r from different places n wit different background..
i reali dun understand y d 'lubuk' dun wan 2 use d chances 2 gt all dis benefits?
haiz.. tats their choice n its nt my bussiness..
nw,i enjoy my uni life so much..so much..

here a story tat i heard b4:
long long time ago, d boy n girl live 2gether in a human body. they lov each other so much n no willing 2 leave each other wherever they go. one day,they met an angel n they wished 2 separate themselves to two human bodies. bt d angel gt an exchange rule 4 them- tat is once they r separated,they hv 2 leave each other 2 a different places.. only with their determination n heart, they will gt d oppurtunity 2 meet each other bec. then,both of d boy n girl agreed wit it..n d 2 lover reali separated 2 a different places..
so,hw is d ending?
actually dis happens 2 our life too..v r looking 4 our mr or miss right ,rite?
some ppl fall in love 4 a few time bt oso face sad ending.. some who r so lucky enough jus met their 1st love n can lead a happy life 4ever..
so no matter hw,jus trust urself tat d 'other part of ur body ' is waiting 4 u at somewhere.. somewhere....

oh my god.. such a group of crazy coursemates tat i hv..
its jus sem 1.2 n dey hv started 2 find their housemates m roomates..
no 1 even think 2 stay at hostel 4 d next yr.. no 1 even wan 2 join any project or programme of hostel..
i dun understand wat r those ppl thinking bout? joining dis kind of projects can giv us many benefits.. leadership, communication skills, confident... v can learn al dis through dis thoe of activities..
being a dental can hv d chance 2 learn al dis after leaving hostel n uni.. doing d same kind of works everyday is very very boring.. checking patients' teeth everyday is our routine works.. oh my..
haiz, dun wana border them la..i can stil join my activity n mix wit other ppl de..
i wish 2 make fren wit others from different courses..

study study study..
boring boring boring..
is it neccesary 2 study everyday,every hour, every minute of our free time?
ppl around keep on saying "retain retain retain" n dis made me feel sick of it so much..
i dun like dis type of life la..
can i use my own study style?
i feel free n nice with my own style la..
i know what am i doing now n i believe i can do what de..
stop talking any of dis topic le..
really feel headache once thinking dis la..
haiz............

after 2 weeks of preparation, planning n hard work,i got d paid off 2day..
opps..mayb u dunoe wat i am talking bout..
i was been selected as one of d GACC Family Outing co-or.i hv 2 find suitable destination, transport, food n oso d whole flow of d programmes running out.. its reali a hard work 2 me when i hv 2 follow up everthing by myself.. i spent most of my time 2 settle everything well n tats made me so tired..
however,i managed 2 set up a fun family outing 4 GACCIANS n it made me feel release nw..
d congratulations from all d members made me feel meaningful 4 wat had i done b4 dis.i didnt mean 2 gt praises from others bt at least some1 c my hardship tat i spent..at least some1 noe wat had i done..thanks u so much!
via dis outing,d relationship btw al d members had enhanced n strongthened..

dis d 1st time gt d mood wana sign up a blog 2 write down my feeling here...
dunoe i gt regret or nt 4 wat had i chose..emm,i mean dentistry..
finish half sem adi oso dun hv mood 2 start study.other coursemates r starting their study n run so faster adi.bt look at me!
jus lost behind n do ntg..i noe keep on saying RELAX bt am i too relax???
i dunoe.....
perhaps my study mood may come bec early soon..